Hello to you all, especially to those of you on blogspot, as I'm a newb here. Today is a mixed day for me. actually, it's been a mixed week all the way around. I've felt somewhat "mentally dead" the last few days. it's been sort of odd really. I think the last time I really had one of these days was about 4 months ago. I think I get them every few months maybe. One of my friends gets a bad migraine about once a year, and it keeps him out for a few days; I think that's how my mentally dead days are. Once every few months, and I am useless for a few days. Such is life.
Actually, I feel the pull and need to get out of town for a couple days really. Working in youth ministry, I feel the pull to get out of town occasionally and re-center if you will. I suppose that would be the case with any job really, but I notice it more here. For me, it's all about the fact that for me to lead well, and to lead the way I want to lead, I feel a need to lead from my heart. It's like this: if I feel like God is calling us a certain direction, then I can only lead us as far as my heart is going that direction. If my relationship with God is lacking, or off-kilter, then I feel, I can derail us easily if I don't pay attention to what I'm doing. And this job feels too important to just let things go. It's not working on a teller line or anything.
Anyways, so that is where I find myself. I feel my heart saying "get out, find some fuel for yourself" and I think I'm gonna have to do it soon.
Not really a related thought per se, but I figure that picture is making no sense in context at all, so let me explain. Today some friends have signed up for this thing called "love is the movement" on facebook, which is an "unofficial" extension (as far as I can tell) of "To Write Love On Her Arms," which is an AMAZING group of people. And I have a friend, who was a student I met for 20 minutes once at a superbowl game about a year ago that has a strong tie to them, and asked us all to participate, and I can't turn down that offer. She is one that I think Jesus would "ditch church & religious people" to go hang out with if He was physically walking the Earth right now. And really, it's a prayer of sorts for me too, for us all. That we would find hope in the fact that in the end, Love will win. We lose sight of that way too often, myself especially, since I get lost in the in's & out's of ministry. Administrative office work frustrates me for that reason, and stirs up a hornets nest in my heart & head, but that's a different blog for a different day. Maybe I'll flesh it out in the next couple days, but I've spent enough time here for now. My goal is to try and write every other day, if not more often than that.
Oh, and for you south-central american types who know what Mardel is, here's some "Jesus junk" as my buddy Marko calls it, that will probably be here in no time next to the Jesus guitar pics and test-a-mints. Thanks to my buddy Tyler for passing this along to me: Jesus cosmetics in Singapore.
Live deeper.
