my bipolar tuesday...

Today is making for a strange day. it's been a sort of building thing, all slowly creeping to a point I suppose. But today feels like a very bipolar sort of day. The rain makes it seem all the more appropriate really. 

First, there are good things. I'm enjoying working at starbucks in my free time, and the free coffee I get for working there isn't hurting any either. But at the same time, I'm starting to dread waking up at 2 am to feed Lucas (once that happens) and then wake up at 4 to go to work. That'll be so worth it, but so exhausting, it makes me tired just thinking about it.

And I've found a new toy to enjoy. Adobe has launched this new thing called Photoshop Express, and it's super cool. I've posted a few pics that I've taken lately of the day lilies we have in our back yard, and they look pretty good. Most of the work was actual Photoshop, and not express, but it's a super cool place to put your pictures if nothing else. Feel free to stop by and check out the flowers that are taking over my back yard in a jungle kinda way here. 

Here's where things get stupid. So, we bought a crib a few weeks back, second hand, from a friend of a relative, one of those my friend will cut you a deal kind of things. So, we got a crib, a changing table, and a dresser for like $400, which each of the same pieces & same brand new costs $400 a piece. Good deal, eh? Here's where it gets sticky... the crib is a piece of crap. So, really we paid $400 for 2 good pieces of furniture and a headboard. Because after order $50 worth of screws & bolts from the manufacturer, we learned that the screw holes that hold the whole thing together are stripped out and won't work. Here's where it gets stickier... the lady told us we could return it if we couldn't find parts, but because we found parts she won't take it back. So, then we bought a new crib this weekend, which sucks, but we got it about $100 less than we should have. And it holds together like it's supposed to, which is a plus of course. So, anyone who's thinking about having kids, make sure you have the parts, and that they all work BEFORE you buy a crib, even if it's a friend of a friend... sometimes those turn out to be the shadiest of all people.

And so life feels like this a lot lately, a lot of swings up & down & up & down. It's quite draining, along with everything else in life all going on at the same time. And all the while, I'm trying to dream things for what our family wants, what I want life to look like, the things that I'm praying for and hoping for my son, all sorts of stuff, and it gets exhausting. Then there's all my thoughts about youth ministry, and the youth ministry that I'm in, specifically. I have thoughts on that, but that's a post for a later time. Come back soon and check it out if you're curious what I think about it, but know it's bipolar too.  : )  it's that kind of season. maybe it's in the water...